Around 44,000 people each year in the United States commits suicide. Each suicide is like a nuclear bomb dropped into the middle of a family. Devastating those closest and leaving emotional scars that last a lifetime. I once heard someone say that if you are considering suicide and you have any children in your life that love you and if you take your life it’s the same as hitting them in the skull with a hammer. It’s that devastating.
If you are thinking of killing yourself please talk to someone – stop reading and go to the resources below to get help. Make it to the next sunrise – its always better in the morning.
Below is a site that has helped me get through some tough nights.
This site is a little corny but its also been helpful when I’ve been struggling.
This site has statistics as well as phone numbers to call for help.
I’ve thought about killing myself more times than I care to admit. I’ve been really close about three times. Fortunately I had family there who helped me get through those horrifying moments of unbearable pain. That’s what suicidal thoughts are. Unbearable pain. My mind spirals out of control and the only way out to avoid the pain, to make it stop is to end my life. I figure if I’m the source of my pain, then there is only one solution to end this pain forever.
Fortunately I’ve not followed through on those suicidal thoughts and I’m still here today. I want all those 44,000 people who kill themselves each year to still be here as well. Ketamine is a miracle drug that could help to make that happen.
Ketamine acts like a chemical life preserver for those who are considering suicide. Study after study as well as anecdotal evidence is mounting that Ketamine can end suicidal thoughts in as little as twenty minutes and the effect can last weeks. I’m never going to talk to a shrink about my suicidal ideation because I know mine is clearly linked to pain and the body wide inflammation I suffer from. I can feel my mind slipping away and the darkness consumes me.
That is why I propose that Ketamine should be like all drugs, (see my post on My take on the Opioid Crisis for the reasoning behind that) should be readily available to be purchased by anyone. Ketamine is a life preserver that anyone who has ever had trouble with suicidal thoughts should have at their home. Just think instead of reaching for a gun to shoot themselves a person suffering from suicidal ideation could inject themselves with Ketamine and live to see the next sunrise.
The next five minutes or the next hour or the next sunrise is all I can hope for depending on how bad I’m feeling. Knowing that there is this life preserver I could reach out for when the darkness consumes me would provide a level of comfort and confidence that I can continue on even in the worst of times. Suffering is part of the human condition. If you are alive you will suffer. FOrtuntaley our biological architecture is positively and powerfully aided by synthetic and natural substances that can help us suffer less and even prevent us from ending our life prematurely.
Right not there are clinics offering Ketamine infusions for those who have treatment resistent depression. In emergency rooms many ER docs are using Ketamine as a first line treatment for those who are afraid they are going to harm themselves. I don’t want to have to go through my lengthy medical history or incur thousands of dollars in medical bills to get a substance I should be able to buy over the counter and administer myself.
All the time we here about the dangers of drugs. Drugs are a tool and if used correctly they can help people live longer, happier and healthier lives. A hammer is a tool as well. It can be crush a persons skull or it can help build a house. Ketamine and other drugs such as opioids are the same, simply tools. I am responsible for my own behavior and that includes when I ingest a substance.
I believe that each individual owns themselves and has a natural right to ingest what substances the he or she sees fit. It is an innate natural right no different then freedom of speech, freedom of religion or the freedom to defend oneself. I reject the argument that drugs are too dangerous. Those in power also thought having the Bible in a language the masses could read was too dangerous. When individuals don’t hold their destines in their own hands bad things happen.
Suicide has been described as a person exceeding their ability to cope with the pain of life. Having Ketamine available as a life saving device for anyone to purchase would help those who are struggling. This powerful tool to can help those suffering in the now and help them see the next sunrise. Then they can get help, talk to their families, make the changes they need to lead a healthier and happier life.
Pain is horrible. No matter if it’s emotional or physical, it is terrible. Having more tools to alleviate and ameliorate pain is a good thing. An individual feels pain. An individual should and does have a natural right to purchase or grow substances without third party authorities interfering which can help ease their suffering of in this life.
Whenever the radical idea of getting the government totally out of healthcare is brought up along with the idea of legalizing all drugs, people always say what about the addicts? What about them? Now they no longer have to go to the black market and risk death or injury from adulterated products. No longer will they have to pay the black market upcharge which prohibition naturally produces. Now they can buy the drugs they wanted at a deeply discounted price because market forces will be at work. Better yet they can buy different drugs that can stop addition in its tracks and actually help to rewire their brain. Psychedelics have been known for decades and even millennia to do this.
Very few people become addicted. Addiction is a result of genetic predispositions and malformed brain architecture. It is something that can be cured as well. Psilocybin has been shown to help people end their addictions so has Auyascha, and LSD. The very substances that are now prohibited show the most promise in helping those locked in the grips of an addiction to be rid of it forever.
Freedom allows individuals to make their own choices. Currently our health choices are being limited by politicians, government bureaucrats, the FDA, the DEA, medical licensing boards, doctors, pharmacies, insurance companies and publicly traded pharmaceutical companies. When we have Medical Freedom in this country we will be able to buy without restriction what we choose to ingest to help treat our pain or whatever disease we may have.
Information is open to everyone now. How many times have you seen your doctor pull up information on the internet to check for side effects or drug interactions? We have the information to make informed choices about what substances we choose to ingest. We would still be able to see doctors and even shrinks if we chose and they would no longer be these all powerful health authorities. They would become more of a health consultant. Patients will become consumers. The power will be returned back to the individual, health outcomes will improve, health care costs will plummet and more and more people will avoid taking their own life.
Along with having Ketamine available over the counter another business could start up. Home health care nurses who would be on call 24/7 and who could deliver an infusion of Ketamine in the comfort of your own home. I’ve been in and out of doctor offices and hospitals for thirty years and they are the least hospitable place to recover. Being at home is the key to feeling better and truly recovering. If someone can the dangers suicidal thoughts kicked out of their head in less than twenty minutes at any time of the day that will definitely help save thousands and maybe even tens of thousands of lives each year.
Until that day, talk to your family, go to the emergency room or call a suicide helpline if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts. Make it to the next sunrise. Just focus on that.
I had an odd experience the other day. I visited a pharmacy and a health food store in the same day for the same reason, relief of pain. The difference was that I was able to buy the Kratom I needed at the Health Food store from friendly helpful folks, and at the Pharmacy which I’ve been using for years, told me I couldn’t get my monthly pain pills renewed because they couldn’t correctly read a calendar.
Two totally different experiences highlights what is wrong with healthcare today. In fact the U.S. Federal Government wanted to put Kratom on Schedule I last year and that would have prevented me from buying it last week. If it wasn’t for Kratom I would have suffered from the physical withdrawal symptoms that comes with stopping abrubtly opioid pain medicine.
This is my quick take on Kratom and my experiences.
(correction: in the video I mistakenly call The American Kratom Association “The Kratom Association of America”, my apologies.”
If anyone wants the real information about Kratom and the Legal battle that still is going on go to: https://www.americankratom.org
The American Kratom Association have done amazing work and still are working to keep Kratom legal. They are headed by intelligent accomplished individuals who know how to organize to stand up to government tyranny.
I highly recommend to anyone interested in advancing the cause of individual liberty, bringing down health care costs, and keeping Kratom legal check out the AKA’s press conference on 11/29/17.
It was the non-regulated market that allowed me to ease my suffering while the State mandated health care system failed to do it. I believe that every individual has the right to ingest what substance in what amounts that they deem necessary to ease their pain and suffering. The current state sanctioned medical system has failed me over and over again to help me treat my pain over the last thirty years.
Even when I’m in the hospital I don’t have my pain managed correctly. Doctors are scared to give opioid prescriptions, pharmacies are under more and more scrutiny and they even lock away their pain pills in safes and have only one staff member who can order them.
The irony is that the banned and tightly controlled substances are some of the most effective and have the least side effects of the medicines that are currently prescribed. Kratom is a perfect example of this. Drug companies are scrambling to come out with the newest “safer” opioid pain killer. I think that is why a lot of the hysteria about the “opioid crisis” is being ginned up.
Kratom actually activates the Kappa opioid receptor. Over the next five years you’ll hear more and more about the K opioid receptor. Kratom is safe. I’ve taken it. It doesn’t help with pain as well as Trammadol and definitely not as well as Oxycontin. But it did take away the physical and mental misery of going through opioid withdrawal which I’ve been forced to go through in the past.
This time around I was able to sleep, I was able to take a daily walk, and function as a human being. If I was prohibited from buying Kratom by the DEA I would have been bed ridden and would have contemplated killing myself. I’m not exaggerating. Being in chronic pain plus going through opioid withdrawal is something I will never do again. Kratom helped me when the government regulated and licensed systems would not.
I hope that the issues that Kratom Prohibition is brining up will help others see that we should all have the ability to purchase what we want when we want. Before I took Kratom I read tons of reviews online and watched tons of testimonials of people who have used it. Suffering makes life unbearable. Being able to ease my suffering is the only reason I’m still alive.
The Politicians, the DEA, and the FDA don’t seem to care about the sick and the suffering. They would rather grandstand and repeat half truths about the Opioid Crisis while favoring the drug companies and insurance companies. I am the only one who feels my pain. I’m the only one who has his life extremely limited by my pain. I own myself and I own my suffering. I and everyone else has the natural right to ingest what substance they deem fit to help ease their suffering.
I am responsible for the relief of my suffering as well. If I choose to ingest a substance its because I’ve done my research and believe that its side effects are less than its benefits. It is truly miraculous that we have the biological machinery that benefits from synthetic and natural substances that can ameliorate pain and keep misery at bay. I don’t want to get “stoned” and do nothing. I like most people who take pain medication do so, so they can simply live.
I’m alive because of opioid pain medication. If my access to it is decreased or eliminated I will end up dead. I can’t live in pain. I won’t. And this is totally unnecessary for me even to contemplate killing myself because of pain. There are incredible medicines available that can relieve pain, help reduce anxiety, and lower inflammation. In the future we’ll be able to buy what medicines we choose without restrictions and even grow our own pharmacy in our back yards.
Once Medical Freedom is recognized health care costs will plummet. Market forces will enter the health care system and competition will drive down costs. Kratom will especially go down in price. Right now its pretty expensive because of the threat of government action against those who are importing it.
The DEA backed off when The Kratom Association of America along with millions contacted them concerning the scheduling of Kratom as a Schedule I drug. If millions demand that all drugs be made available for purchase without prescription, which is in reality a government sanctioned permission slip, they will have to submit. There are a hell of a lot more of us then there are of them.
Humans for our entire history until the last hundred years have tested medicines by using them. Cannabis, Kratom, medicinal mushrooms and extracts of the poppy plant have been tested for thousands and thousands of years by our ancestors. I find it arrogant and condescending for the head of the FDA to say
“While we remain open to the potential medicinal uses of kratom, those uses must be backed by sound science and weighed appropriately against the potential for abuse,” Gottlieb wrote.
I like many people have a pioneer mindset. I don’t need a thousand studies or a panel of industry captured government officials to tell me if something is safe or not. I will weigh the evidence of my fellow humans and decide to take the risk or not. If I’m wrong and I get even sicker and die that’s my fault. More than likely I won’t.
The current hysteria over the so called Opioid Crisis is not meant to help anyone except politicians, rehab centers and pharmaceutical companies.
I’ve been suffering from chronic pain for over thirty years now. In the last three decades the only way for me to function was and still is by taking pain killers. My main relationship since I have been 11 has been with pain. Believe me that’s not a great way to live.
Government is always looking to grow. Politicians are always looking for ways to use the righteous idigination and ignorance of the masses to further their career while at the same time gaining brownie points with big business. This is exactly what is going on with the Opioid Crisis.
The 55,000 number of deaths linked to opioids is extremely misleading. The majority of those deaths have been the result of a combination of substances ingested which include alcohol and barbiturates along with the demonized opioids. Other deaths are linked to adulterated black market drugs, many pain patients are driven to this horrible alternative because they have been denied treatment. The opioid crisis is not caused by doctors prescribing pain pills to people who are in chronic pain.
This type of misinformation is always used to take away our rights and to enrich the few at our expense. A new wave of opioids that targets the Kappa opioid receptors will hit the market soon. I think that is another reason why the media attention on this is being ginned up as well.
There is no one speaking for the people who are in chronic pain. I’ve lost days, weeks months and years to pain. I’ve missed out on most of life because of pain. The more my access to pain killers is reduced the more pain I suffer and the less life I live. I believe that every individual has a god given, natural or innate right if you will to ingest whatever substance they see fit to consume.
That is why I advocate for government to get out of my healthcare all together. I don’t need a politician or my neighbor determining what I should or shouldn’t ingest. I propose what I hope will become the 28th Amendment to the United States Constitution that would simply read:
Every individual has the innate and natural right to ingest, grow, consume, trade, sale or gift whatever substance they see fit.
Just because someone consumes a substance doesn’t mean they are not responsible for their actions. It doesn’t matter if I kill someone whether I’ve just smoked a joint, taken a shot of Jack Daniels or drank a strong cup of coffee, I’m still responsible for what I’ve done.
When all substances can be bought “over the counter” Pfizer and Merk and other drug companies will be just like Apple or Microsoft. I can envision them opening their own stores and even having doctors on staff that will provide medical consultations and blood work for free. That way they will attempt to keep you in their ecosystem just like Apple and Google do.
Other businesses will open up and will be the Best Buy or the Walmart of medicines. Amazon could be, if they are forward looking enough, to become the number one seller of medicine in the world. Health care costs will plummet and the first time in a long time individuals will not only be able to buy what they want to treat their specific health issues but will also be able to grow their own pharmacies in their back yard. That is real freedom.
Think about growing just about all the medicine you need in your backyard for pennies per dose? A medicinal garden could include poppies, cannabis, and medicinal mushroom. It is a miracle that our bodies have the architecture to be positively and powerfully influenced by compounds made by plants and fungi. By combining the best of synthetic and natural medicines we can all live a happier, healthier and longer life.
The behavior of Pharmaceutical companies will have to adapt to this new era of medical freedom by providing a better product at a much lower price. Without the FDA and government sanction the drug companies will have to start dealing directly with consumers. They will be on the hunt for lower side effect drugs and price them competitively due to the huge explosion of natural medicines that would be available. Research money would more and more go into natural solutions because of their safety profile and lack of side effects. Overall medicine will become cheaper, more effective and cause less deaths and injuries.
Having ready access to pain medicine would change my life for the better. I’m tired of going to the doctor with hat in hand hoping that I’ll get a prescription, which is merely a government sanctioned permission slip. I’m tired of going to the pharmacy and getting hassled because they aren’t able to read a calendar correctly. I’m tired of having to go to multiple pharmacies to get a prescription filled because their out of the pain medicine and their pharmacist is the only one who can order narcotics and he’s on vacation for the week. When you are sick and in pain these type of hassles add to your already mounting misery.
Those harping on the Opioid Crisis may care about those that are dying. But if they really wanted to use their time to the best effect they should be talking about Cigarettes which kill around 400,000 people a year, or alcohol which causes the death of around 90,000 people or so per year, or sugar and grain which can cause cardio vascular disease which kills millions per year. It’s clearly not about the numbers of dead that the opioid crisis do gooders are concerned about or they would be going after the big killers in this country.
Sick people are easy targets. Doctors are easy to manipulate because of the state licensing they are subject to. With the new era of Medical Freedom I’m proposing doctors could become health consultants and no longer be beholden to the current state monopoly on certifying health professionals. If doctors want to continue with the current model they could. They could be paid directly by the pharmaceutical companies and become doctors at the Pfizer store. Once doctors and patients are no longer tethered to the prescription pad or state licensing boards, politicians will lose the power to interfere with our health choices and people in pain will not have to suffer needlessly.
Its time we get government out of health care. Its time for adults to take control over their health, to exercise our innate right of self-ownership and buy whatever medicine or substance we choose to. Individuals suffer. And individuals pay the consequence of their actions. We all have the right to ingest what we choose. If the First Amendment of the Constitution protects our right to eject words out of our mouths, shouldn’t the Constitution protect our right to put into our mouth whatever we choose?
Suffering is part of the human condition. We all suffer emotionally and physically. On this space ship Earth we have synthetic and natural compounds that can help ease the suffering. Psilocybin has proven to help with anxiety and can help end addiction, MDMA can help with PTSD, LSD can help end alcoholism, Ketamine can in less than twenty minutes end suicidal thoughts, Cannabis that miracle plant, is full of beneficial compounds that work together to help lower inflammation, reduce anxiety, increase well being, end seizures, reduce tumor size and help with sleep, and new and old opioids can help end the physical suffering of millions. Why can’t I go buy these chemicals off the shelf or order them off of Amazon? It’s not because they are expensive. Why can’t I grow medicinal mushrooms, poppy plants and Cannabis in my backyard? It’s not because they are difficult to grow.
The real reason we don’t have Medical Freedom is because we’ve forgotten that every individual owns themselves and that we have a natural right to treat our pain or our diseases as we see fit and so we must demand our innate right to ingest what we choose and bear the consequences of those choices.